Completely Tired
Saturday, November 13, 2004
I can feel the presence of my upcoming attack. Make it stop. No matter how much I beg I know it won't stop. When I look in the mirror I seem far too old, especially in my eyes. Even before I was officially diagnosed, nurses could see how much I was hurting despite not showing the pain outwardly. Dr.'s on the other hand.. well that is an entirely different story. After all, clusters tend to only show up on P.E.T. scans and only during an attack. Try scheduling that one.
Times like these I wish I could disappear. Don't know where I would head but at least the clusters would only affect me and not the ones around me. No sense having everyone miserable. I'm miserable enough that my family and friends have not visited me in over a year. Now that is a long time. Maybe they should try the 3 years I have had with this pain. Or feel what it is like just once so they could understand a bit better.
Anyways wish me luck on the long night(s)/day(s) ahead.
Paul
Times like these I wish I could disappear. Don't know where I would head but at least the clusters would only affect me and not the ones around me. No sense having everyone miserable. I'm miserable enough that my family and friends have not visited me in over a year. Now that is a long time. Maybe they should try the 3 years I have had with this pain. Or feel what it is like just once so they could understand a bit better.
Anyways wish me luck on the long night(s)/day(s) ahead.
Paul
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