Sunday, September 05, 2004

I had a fairly good day today. Mindy and I even laughed for awhile at some of the weird things I did while I was growing up. We haven't laughed together in such a long time. Felt good to do that again. Would be nice if we could keep that up all the time. I don't know why we can't anymore. Hopefully today will be the start of a change in the way we are together.

I spent most of the day so excited about getting my new computer. I can't wait! I've been researching every individual componet. Checking for flaws, slowdowns, what is the fastest, how it can be made to go faster once I have it in my hands and what parts go best together. I think I finally have it. Just the heatsink is left. Heatsinks are extremely important. The cooler the processor is the faster I can make it and the longer it will last without crashing. Some people don't realize just how many crashes they get because their pc is running too hot.

One time I was going to use a liquid nitrogen cooling system of my own design. However I couldn't find a decently priced container to hold the N20 in. But if I had the money I would have done it without hesitation. It's not about cost, its about trying something new that very few people have done, least back then. Plus if it leaked I'd get to see all the parts shatter the computer :) Okay, okay I'm a geek lol. But aren't we all?

Since it's been a couple of days since I posted last I have to say Canada is kicking a** in hockey, yet again, at the world cup! We play next on Wednesday. Come to think of it I don't know who we play yet. Maybe we'll get to give the yanks another beating. Must be humiliating to be the U.S.A right now. First their 'dream time' comes 3rd at the Olympics in basketball(yet another Canadian sport) and now this. Time to wake up and realize egos don't win team games! Enough of picking on the yanks for now. I'll have lots of time to do then after they are knocked out of the tournament:)

Yesterday I went to go and get my breathe test done for finding how much of the H. pylori bacteria is brewing in me. I couldn't have anything to eat or drink for 4 hours or more prior to the test so I decided to go after I woke up. They assured me on friday that they would be open yesterday. But guess what? They weren't. My fault for not reading the sign and taking their word for it. Oh well, try again on tuesday.

Reducing stress is so extremely important right now. More so than ever for me. It looks more and more like I have another ulcer. I forgot how sore it can be. Everything aggrevates it. Water, tea, stress etc... I thought I was doing ok stress-wise before my stomach started to hurt. Guess the situations with my clusters, not being able to provide for myself like I once did, arguing all the time and medications have really taken their toll lately. Hopefully, my lining will repair itself quickly and without further complications.

My health and complications go hand in hand. A perfect marriage it would seem. Never seem to be sick like anyone else. Hell it is to the point where my parents don't even believe me. No matter what test comes back positive, what a specialist says or the obvious pain I'm in. My mom still thinks I was faking my shoulder injury despite the ct scan showing a blatant tear of my rotator and then having to get a rod and clamp put in. No I'm not bitter, really;). Just have no time for people that tell me they will be there for me when I need them but do nothing make the situation worse. Besides the title says 'A ClusterHead RANTS'. So thats what I'm doing lol.

Ooops, I'm getting a little side-tracked here lol. Hope everyone has a great Labour day. I'm going to kick back watch some World Cup Hockey and CFL football. Don't know who is playing in the hockey game. Always entertaining. I love hockey. I don't care who is playing. Followed the classic Labour Day double header on CBC. Edmonton at Calgary. Then Toronto at Hamilton. I'll go for Edmonton and Hamilton. Can't stand Toronto lol. Almost as bad as the Leafs :) I can't think of a better way to relieve stress except for maybe sex. Hard to be in the mood for that when one is so sore and apprehensive. Anyways, Enjoy yourself!


The purpose of life is a life of purpose.
-Robert Byrne



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