Is it Possible?
Sunday, February 13, 2005
To love a child enough to let them go free? Would that be the best for my daughter? I am going to say the next part delicately because of the state of the present situation. Amirah's mother served me with papers for her husband to adopt her. This has brought on a wide spectrum of emotions‚ not of them good for me. The positive about the situation if Amirah will have more stability than I could ever give her with chronic cluster headaches and daily epilepsy. Other than that the whole situation is <Insert colourful metaphor here>. The only dilema I have is how with this will it affect Amirah and is this for her best interest. My goal since the day she was born a healthy 7 pounds 11 ounce is to grow up healthy and flourish the way I know she can. To be as joyful & happy as she has made and will continue to make me. If that means I am not apart of her life then so be it. There won't be a day which goes by I WILL NOT be thinking of her.
Right now I am in the ‘What the hell did I ever do to anyone to deserve this’ phase. Haven't felt this way in a very very long time. Probably more scared than anything else. The uncertainty of everything is killing me. This has definately added to the high amount of stress I am already feeling(obviously). Hard enough to go through this when one is healthy. To compact it on top of a chronic illness is like giving a drowning person an anchor. No matter what happens in the next week her and my lives will be changed forever.
Here she is.
Paul
Love reminds you that nothing else matters.
-Amy Bushell
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Right now I am in the ‘What the hell did I ever do to anyone to deserve this’ phase. Haven't felt this way in a very very long time. Probably more scared than anything else. The uncertainty of everything is killing me. This has definately added to the high amount of stress I am already feeling(obviously). Hard enough to go through this when one is healthy. To compact it on top of a chronic illness is like giving a drowning person an anchor. No matter what happens in the next week her and my lives will be changed forever.
Here she is.
Paul
Love reminds you that nothing else matters.
-Amy Bushell
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