Vivid Nightmares

Saturday, February 19, 2005

I was going to write about one of the nightmares I had last night. Even wrote 4 paragraphs. I just couldn't bring myself to finish it. It is one I want to forget. Seemed so real and traumatizing all at the same time. Realistic nightmares are something I experience with each prodrome of a cycle. Thankfully dreams like these are only at the beginning of the cycle and not with each attack.

Yesterday the pain was so intense I blacked-out. Several times during the night I awoke for very brief periods. At least I think it they were for brief periods. Each time sweat covered my body and my eyes were like a leaky faucet. Another great symptom of clusters. The pain was unbearable. Even with the cycle finishing in the middle of the night; the effects took more than a couple of hours after to leave me after being up and about this morning. When I was well enough to finally stand dizziness and nausea over took me. My eyes were unable to focus on anything larger than a chair and even that was blurry. Both were badly bloodshot. Not something to recommend to your friends on a Saturday morning.

The rest of the day was good. Mindy and I headed off to visit my pregnant sister and my nephew. He is getting so big and full of energy. No wonder my sister is always worn out by him. You can certainly tell he his a terrible two. Doesn't make her pregnancy any easier. I wish I could get out to see them more to help out. One of the drawbacks of living so far away. However Vancouver is far more enjoyable for me. If driving was a possibility then I could see them more but given the current situation they will have to wait. Unless I move back out that way. Which will never happen. Far too polluted for starters. Besides‚ 18 years is enough!

All the things one has forgotten scream for help in dreams.
-Elias Canetti



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