A Sufferer's Guilt
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
For the past few weeks the guilt I feel from the pain and the effects on my lifestyle (or lack of) and most of all the way others are impacted by these clusters has risen dramatically in the past few weeks. The stress of living with someone in chronic pain is showing through on Mindy. I would not be surprised if she left me. People not directly involved with chronic sufferers do not realize the toll it takes on loved ones. After awhile everyone becomes sick of them and leaves. Not so much to leave me but to escape the situation from dragging them down. Honestly I do not blame them. I do hurt inside when the loneliness takes hold as I cry unknowingly under the ice-packs during each attack. Some days I wonder if the ones I care about would be better off if I disappeared. If the clusters and seizures left life would be grand for me. Some how I do not think my wish will happen in the near future. Only time will tell. Here is to uncertainty.
Paul
It's odd that you can get so anesthetized by your own pain or your own problem that you don't quite fully share the hell of someone close to you.
-Lady Bird Johnson
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Paul
It's odd that you can get so anesthetized by your own pain or your own problem that you don't quite fully share the hell of someone close to you.
-Lady Bird Johnson
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