Frustrated... FRUstrated..... FRUSTRATED!!!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
The other night there was a celebration of my sister's birthday. Normally I do not attend events that have more than one trigger. Ex. schedule change, loud music and so forth. As time went on the pain became so vicious that I could not stop my eyes from pouring out tears. Eventually the pain subsided and was left with the euphoric affect from which can only come from severe pain. The body's pain suppressants work well just not well enough. But by that point I had overheard identifiable individuals (voices tend become that much louder when they drink) saying I was a nuisance and I should have known better. Ironic considering that I tend to get grief if I avoid outings that will cause others to be affected by my pain. Right now I just want to scream till my lungs burst and disappear to part unknown.
Paul
I reached for sleep and drew it round me like a blanket muffling pain and thought together in the merciful dark.
- Mary Stewart
4 comments
4 Comments:
good one, "avoid outings that will cause others to be affected by my pain" - how dare we affect others with our pain, thoughtless dependants we are.
By deborah, at 25 October 2009 at 17:41
I could not stop my eyes from pouring out tears. Eventually the pain subsided and was left with the euphoric affect from which can only come from severe pain.
By Mary B., at 23 December 2009 at 09:15
Man do I know how you feel. First off those people need to get a clue. I have chronic clusters and migraines. It has a tendency to get intractable as well.
I've been searching for someone that gets headaches as bad as I do. How long have you been chronic? What meds and/or treatment have you tried?
By HA Queen, at 28 December 2009 at 12:58
HA Queen: I've been chronic for just over 8 years and like you, I get migraines as well. Migraines feel like a welcome relief in comparison to cluster. As for meds I have tried everything on the market, in Canada at least.
Feel free to email me (the address is at the bottom of the page) if you would like to talk more.
Paul
By Versilleus, at 29 December 2009 at 13:13
*Please do not use this information for self diagnoses. Writing about my experiences with chronic cluster headaches & epilepsy is a good outlet for me. Consult your Dr. with any kind of headache or chronic pain you may have. The 3rd party links on my site I have found to be a good resource to me over the past few years & dearly hope they will benefit you as well.*