Taking a break between attacks
Friday, January 15, 2010
Well it's late and I am still tender from my 1 a.m. bout. My eye feels like the 'hot poker' broke off inside. The next one should be fun. The fragment will be pushed further in until I'm clawing furiously to remove it. Just another next in chronic clusterville.
Now there is only another hour to go till my next one. No sense and trying to go to bed. With my days and nights completely reversed. Everything seems, well, distance. Like I'm looking through someone else's eyes. Ever since I "just gave up". Not in the hopeless sense. I don't care about them anymore. Don't think it will last. Hopefully it won't stay for much longer. Being able to focus pain away is a great trick to learn. The clusters feel just as distance. They haven't lessen in intensity and yet they don't register. It is bizarre. When I have a bit more time maybe I'll write about how I focus the pain so I don't have to head bang.
But it is time to get prepared for my next attack. Would you care to dance beast? I'll lead...
Paul
Melancholy sees the worst of things,—things as they may be, and not as they are. It looks upon a beautiful face, and sees but a grinning skull.
-Christian Nestell Bovee
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Now there is only another hour to go till my next one. No sense and trying to go to bed. With my days and nights completely reversed. Everything seems, well, distance. Like I'm looking through someone else's eyes. Ever since I "just gave up". Not in the hopeless sense. I don't care about them anymore. Don't think it will last. Hopefully it won't stay for much longer. Being able to focus pain away is a great trick to learn. The clusters feel just as distance. They haven't lessen in intensity and yet they don't register. It is bizarre. When I have a bit more time maybe I'll write about how I focus the pain so I don't have to head bang.
But it is time to get prepared for my next attack. Would you care to dance beast? I'll lead...
Paul
Melancholy sees the worst of things,—things as they may be, and not as they are. It looks upon a beautiful face, and sees but a grinning skull.
-Christian Nestell Bovee
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